The Questions and Confessions

What am I to do?
Why am I to even fall for you?
Who am I to chose between best friend and love?
How am to face both of you?
When am I to tell you how I really feel?
Where am I to tell you this horrible truth?

I really want to tell you how I feel..
I really want to let you see me.
No matter how hard I try to catch your attention.
You will never notice..

I cried today..
I was right beside her, crying.
We were both crying. But you could only see her.
You didn't even bother to look at me..

It hurts.. It hurts so much..

Even though the both of you had already broke up..
I know, you still have feelings for each other..
You changed, just for her.
Is she really that important that you wouldn't even bother to look at me?
To look at me, just as a friend?

As a friend.

I'm just a decoration.
A person just to make the scene look more 'competitive'.
To make you look more like a girls' guy.
I don't even mean anything.
You just care for her, and only her.

I'm nothing.

I'm selfish, you say?
You say that I should just wish for his happiness.
If he's happy then I should be happy too.
Yeah, maybe you're right.
Maybe I should.
But I love you so much..

I love you so much that it hurts.

-XiAorUi--