不想知道了。

最近..

发生了很多事情。


其实有很多事.. 我都不会告诉你们。
一直以来都是憋在心里的。

不知道怎么说..
就是心情很乱，心里好像打了个大结..

最近又有新的发现.. 不好受。

人真的不可貌相。
就算想相信不是酱的，但是还是心痛了。

很想大声说：“没有啦！不要乱讲话！”
但是，又好像没说错咧..


哟..
想哭..

:DDDDD

嘿嘿..

我今天早上...


享受了34秒的快乐。

嘿嘿. ><

回到了这个地方...

唉.. 

又是那一年的感觉。

这种感觉根本不该再浮现了。

往往都是自己的幻想。想太多了。

心情被搞得很低落。

是不是开朗了太久？

现在轮到低落的时候了？

没办法集中精神了。

搞得整个人快跨了。

这只不过是开始而已，接下来的日子该怎么过？

想太多了。想太多了。

这根本不是我。

拜托拜托，坚强吧。

不想再想了。

唉..

坚持着不要上网的我.. 破戒了。


最近心情低落。实在有够不爽。

很多事情，明明不是我的问题，甚至不是任何人的问题，但是自己却感到非常内疚..

不爽带点内疚。



错。是很多很多的内疚。


这是我的问题。

我的问题自己解决。


“往往坚强的外表都有脆弱的内心。”

对吗？

Shabu One & "Big Head Sticker" xD

Soo.. Had 3E' Family Reunion Lunch today. xD

Didn't take any photos of us eating though.. Go get from someone else lar. -.-

After lunch. lol. 

Hui Ying and Zhu Yan. xD

Taking pictures from both sides. In front. Behind. ><

Group photo~

They were trying to do to "thing" which I dunno. ==

Lisa's shoe strap broke. So had to buy a new one.

Stock clearance "Buy 1 Free 1". -.-

I wanna boots~~~~ ><

Anne doing the shoe thing. Hahaha.

Lisa's brown, Annes's black. I'm not wearing heels.

OMG. Orange shoe appeared from no where!!

Ha-ha.

She looks so much taller with the heels. xD

Car Yin+Me

Anne+Me

Crystal+Me

BB Milk+Me

Ice+Me

Lisa+Me

Gawd I look the same in every picture. = =

Hahahahahaha.

Anne being perverted. xDDD

Again. ><

The heels group. -.-

They're trying to so their heels. ><

But ended up getting addicted and turned it into a photoshoot.

Hahaha.

It's like models resting. With the green background.

xD

Left. Feet hurt. -.-

I could almost hear it screaming at me for torturing it.

OMG. It's screaming at me!! See the earth shake!!

AHH!! Ohnooooooooooooo!!!!

I'm dead.

I'm rambling, woohoo.

Hahahhaha.

I'm back yo. ><

I know I know. Didn't update in ages. WEE~~ But, WHO CARES?!! Hahahahahah.

So..

Had barbecue party at Kuan Yung's house with C6 and 3E.
Woohoo~ Was awesome.
Took an extreme amount of pictures. Too bad. Go facebook search yourself. :P

Then then then,

CNY Holiday~

Went to Penang for 3 days 2 nights. Visited a whole lotta temples. -.-
ALOOOT to eat. Like, awesome.
Food makes the world go round. And me too. T.T

Was sick on the 3rd day. Like, headache headache. Sigh.
Arrived at home, thought I was gonna die.
Didn't eat anything for the whole day.
At night can't sleep. Feel like vomiting but tak boleh vomit.
Started to think I was possessed by some god or something.
Started to hallucinate. Kept saying prayers and mantras and whatever shit to "get rid" of the "god".

Next day morning, "god" left me. Woohoo.
World peace.


Anyway, went to watch 大兵小将Little Big Soldier on Thursday.

Jackie Chan is AWESOME.
Wang Lee Hom is AWESOME. -.-
AWESOME. AWESOME. AWESOME.

Nothing else to say.

Bye bye.

它。

多久没有哭了？


以前爱哭的我，应该有3个月没有真正的哭了吧？
就是因为太容易哭，才要变得坚强，让自己与“哭”产生界限。

习惯了“哭”，就害怕自己会永远沉没在眼泪里。
哭上瘾了，就没有办法再控制自己的情绪。
跟它太熟悉，就会害自己没有办法回到原本的路途。

15年来，我确实跟它太熟悉了。

不喜欢给人看见那样的我，所以我决定离开它。

或许是因为那一次哭光了我的泪水，
后来都没有哭了。


这次，好不容易的3个月，我破界了。
这次，又再回忆里相见了。

那19首歌不停地重复播放，每一首歌就浮现了不同的画面。

2008年的那一次。
2009年的那一次。

但是，我相信2010年，没有那一次了。

怀念过去，想要拥抱过去，后悔当初。
我的两大家庭，同样的母亲，不同的兄弟姐妹。
不懂大家现在怎么样了，但是我知道一定过得很好。

今年的某一天，我们会重逢。
直到那一天，我会等，我会忍，我不会再与它相见的。

Jeez..

I think too much.

Not good.

Not good at all.

Uh-huh.

Aiyor. 

I delete my "I'm so f***in pissed" post. xD

Because somebody said that I say too many bad words. Hahahah.

Actually I didn't start saying bad words again until i came back to school. Must be the C6 Virus going on. Hahahahaha.

So, my new resolution: 

Less No more bad words.

Yaaaaaaaay~

Got back my scissors yesterday.

Ding Yi took it. And it took him so many days to return it. -.-

Scissors~~~~~~ xD

God, I have a thing for scissors. ==

NyahaHHAaha.

Gosh.

Now i have someone else that I super duper love in Double S.




JUNG MIN~~~ 
*hearts*hearts*hearts*hearts*


OMG. He is so darn cuuuuute~~~~ As in the cute cute kind of cute. Not the cute looking guy kinda cute. Geddit? xD


Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh.

So obsessed~~~~~~~ xD

OMGOGMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

Sigh.

Have to stop saying "算了啦".

I'm sounding more 随便 than I mean to be.

Sigh.

These days..

S1C6 is pretty awesome. >.<

Though they are different in a lot of points than J3E, but it's something new, right? =]


One the first day of school, we were all like, ".................". Absolutely no sound at all.

Then second day, "BOOM! BANG! WOOHOO~!!!!" Hahahah.

Awesome. And we're all so comfortable with each other already. Weee~~

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I lost my scissors today. -.- Freak. I always lose my scissors. ==

So pissed now.

If I ever find it back or actually get a new one, I'm never in my life gonna borrow it to anyone ever again. So never ever in your friggin life ask me for scissors. Or I'll slit your throat like the barber of Fleet Street.

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Very very tired now. Have been tired for these 3 days. No kidding.

I've never ever been this tired at the start of school. ;A;

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When somebody who's always fooling around and saying stupid things becomes serious and attentive to something, the level of attractiveness in that person becomes higher than any other person may be.

-Me

I've found that person.

New Haircut!

Yay! Finally cut my hair~ XD

The front is actually longer than the back..

Somehow I don't think school really allows that. Haha.

Screw the rules!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR,

PEOPLE!!!~

Weee~~

OHAHAHAHAHA!

OMG.

I'm in S1C6.

xDDD

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Hilarious.

I'm gonna see DMC again!!!!!

OMG.

It's the karma, I tell you. KARMA!!!!!!

Weeee~~~

I'm running...


Running away from everything..





I'm a coward.

WARNING.

DUDE. I'm gonna change my blog link to something simpler. So be aware.

www.obsession-erist.blogspot.com

I was gonna put obsession-ist, but wasn't available.. Hence the obsession-er+ist thing. -.-

Phobia

It's raining here. And it's big. Windy. It's like a taufan is coming.

The rain drops are falling on the window. What's more, I had to go out and get the clothes to safety.

Out there barefooted. Frantically grabbing pegs to keep the clothes on the line. The wind. The raindrops. The coldness. The thunder.

I close every window there is on the first floor. Not daring to go to the second floor. The sound of raindrops faded a bit. But thunder's still there.

I grab every pillow there is. And cuddle next to my computer along with my dog. Hoping that the computer's heat can warm me up.

Raindrops sounding at every corner.

Drip... Drop... Drip... Drop...


I'm scared of water. Yet I can't live without water.