不想知道了。

最近..

发生了很多事情。


其实有很多事.. 我都不会告诉你们。
一直以来都是憋在心里的。

不知道怎么说..
就是心情很乱，心里好像打了个大结..

最近又有新的发现.. 不好受。

人真的不可貌相。
就算想相信不是酱的，但是还是心痛了。

很想大声说：“没有啦！不要乱讲话！”
但是，又好像没说错咧..


哟..
想哭..

:DDDDD

手足口口口口口

手足口症一点都不好。

整个嘴巴烂了...
吃东西好像要我的命酱..

T^T

累啊...

我想回学校~~



但是蛮高兴的是，很多人都很关心我~~
尤其是华乐团的朋友们~ 一直都有问候我..

感动.. T^T

我会快快好起来回去找你们的!!!!

嘿嘿..

我今天早上...


享受了34秒的快乐。

嘿嘿. ><

下一站，幸福

你可以说我过时了.. 但是，
我最近真的真的迷上了

《下一站，幸福》

感动感动。

小小彬好可爱.. 真的很像各家咧..

整部剧的歌也很好听。不知不觉也迷上了丁当的声音~

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

听了真伤心。唱得真心痛。

心痛。

Now I Need To Breathe. :D

My gawd.

I wanna blog about school. But what the hey, I have absolutely no idea how to start. = =

Anyway, we WONNNN!!!

Like, we got:

+ Second place in girl's volleyball competition

+ First place in boy's volleyball competition

+ Second place in girl's volleyball competition

Woohoo~ We are like, Awesome! With a capital A. xDD

No seriously, the boy's semi final match is by far the most exciting match I have ever seen. It's like watching a concert, except your heart's gonna pop out in worry+excitement. Hohohoho~

GAWD. I wanna see moore!! Next year next year next year!! :DDDD

Need.Time.Out.

This is the worst holiday ever.

Sometimes I just wanna quit and go somewhere else more relaxing, with less pressure, and also with less annoying people.

Shouldn't have agreed to it in the first place anyway.

Never ever make promises without giving it a second thought. Cause once you say it out, there's no turning back. No turning back at all. 

Yeah, it may be good memories when I grow old or something. But stilll, if this goes on, I don't even know if I'll live long enough to think of these as good memories!

Sigh, I wanna go back to school.

This holiday is the worst.

I hate it.

千人宴~~

诶~!

昨天千人宴咧..

哈哈.. 爽。

早上8点半就到咯.. 

一直待到晚上11点半才离开.. xDD

化妆的时候.. 

发现到原来华乐团的男生都很帅!! 

哈哈哈哈

我和鼎毅都变白了..

哈哈哈

过后仕康都帮他们wax头发.. 

OMG. 完全都变了个样!! 

哈哈哈

鼎毅超美的

志坚超帅的

奕荃的口红太鲜艳了, 不然就很帅

衍禧超可爱的

嘉骏也是超可爱的

哈哈哈哈

过后咧.. 我们在暗中唱歌.

哈哈哈

很爽. 变成A Capella团了.

哈哈哈哈

谢幕更High. 整个傻婆酱

傻佬淑慧又发疯了

哈哈哈哈哈

唱“前进吧，循中”, 真是High翻天

这首歌真是太棒了

哈哈哈

看到阿毛, 洧康, 和Yuh Jin.

死阿毛一直指来指去. ==

And then回到乐器室时候咧..

阿梁就开始讲话了

讲讲下.. 就变成很严肃了

将我们要谈恋爱可以, 但是不要把那种风气带来华乐团

不要做买那种亲密到死的动作

不然的话他会骂到我们siao

他就讲咧..

每次奏"金玉满堂"的时候很喜欢看我跟奕荃

因为我们一直在琵琶那段就跟着节奏摇

and then就讲："但是我不会因为酱就认为他们两个在pak toh咯。我指的那种行为是lam在一起, 抱来抱去的行为，很令人反感!"

== 鱼到啊.............

Anyway, 千人宴很爽

爽到啊....

哈哈哈哈哈

等我回来吧..

最近爱上了吉他..

发现离钢琴越来越远了.. 不行。

这么多年的辛苦，是为了什么?

我要找回我那份热情。

想做太多东西了.. 好像都来不及..

老师~ 我要回来了.. 

等我哦~ 到时候你会有很多东西要补充给我了.. ><

钢琴钢琴乖，我不会离你太远的。

迟早有一天，我会追上你的。

OMG. HAWT!!! xDD

Taiwan

Hi.

So I've finally taken time to write about Taiwan.

Last month, 16th to 25th or March, I went to Taiwan for a study trip.
It was.. fun. I guess.

Like I said before, I was the only person who was going in my class. Of course I felt lonely.
But still, I made friends. Actually, they were all very nice. And of course I knew some people. So that made things much easier..

This trip is actually more play than study. xD Of course lar, how can you spend 10 whole days just studying? Haha. Spent 400 ringgit there. Awesome.

We went shopping. Went to zoos. Went to farms. Went to Taipei 101. Went to the sea. Went to museums. Visited high schools and universities. Went to bookstores. Went to pasar malams. And so on.

Taiwan's night markets are so much better than ours. They have like, so muuuuch to eat. So muuuch to buy. The shoes are so unbelievably cheap. The clothes are insane! You can find so many different things to eat and drink. It's incredible. :)
Though 西门町 wasn't how I expected it to be. It's basically a very very big night market with lots and lots of clothes to buy. Not that much food though. It's much high classed. But 逢甲夜市 felt more like how a night market's supposed to be. Everybody buzzing around. Lots to eat. Nice.

The streets of Taiwan are insanely clean. The people are so well mannered. They're so polite. Unlike Malaysians. -.- They're so different from us, it's depressing.

木栅动物园 is sooo much better than our Zoo Negara. Even though they also have the animals we have here, their's look so much healthier. The monkeys are much livelier. They have so much more animals. And it's so annoyingly clean! -.- Dammit. I saw 团团 and 圆圆. So cuuuute~ >< Sigh. We should be ashamed of ourselves.

Taipei 101 is nice. Even though we didn't get to shop there. But still, the view is so beautiful!! Along with the fog.. it's just awesome. Taipei 101 itself is beautiful enough. The building structure is so niiiice. Though our Twin Towers is nice too. :) That's to be proud of.

The way Taiwanese study is waaay different than us. Of course, they use traditional Chinese. Which is already very different from us. On top of that, they teach very very fast. You'll have to pay 100% attention in class, or else you'll be toasted. XD

The universities are very very nice. Especially 东海大学. It is BEAUTIFUL. Like, so unbelievably beautiful. xD You'll so definately fall in love with it at first sight. :DDD

I can't tell you exactly what happened during the whole 10 days. So I guess this is it.
Till next time.

Confuzzled.

Sigh. Another 14 hours until I board the plane to Taiwan.

I have alot of mixed feelings about this.
This feeling that I should go to camp instead of Taiwan is so killing me. T.T

Moreover, there's not really anybody close to me going on this trip. And I only know a few people.. Feels kinda lonely.

Sigh. Not to mention, I'm gonna lose the chance at finding out my results immediately, thanks to losing 4 days of school. -.-

Who the hell is gonna go crazy with me when we go shopping!? Omg. I'm so doomed....


But hey, I get to see stuff, buy stuff, visit stuff.

Oh, well. Gotta look at the brighter side of things, eh? Even though the darker side of things are dawning upon me like mad. -.-


Good luck, people.

Bonkers!

Happy to say, exam's over.  =]

I supposed I really put in more effort than my previous exams..

Maybe perhaps it's like Form 1 all over again. That sort of drive that you feel..

xD

But I have no idea how my results are gonna be this time. Even though the 3 subjects given out did show some hope.. But still.. You'll never know. ><

Maths really blew my head off. Hahaha. Got 86. Hahahahahaha.

HAhahahaa. Going bonkers. xDDDD

Do you have ANY idea how hard it is for me to get an 8 in front?! Heck, it's even a miracle if I get a 6 in front!

WOOHOO~~

Bonkers.

Bonkers.

Bonkers.

Bonkers.

Hahahahahhaa.

Not trying to brag.. But STILL, WOOHOOOOOOO~~~

I can feel my math brain cells alive again!!! Hallelujah~~ :P

Oh, but wait, what about History and Geography?

Shit.

回到了这个地方...

唉.. 

又是那一年的感觉。

这种感觉根本不该再浮现了。

往往都是自己的幻想。想太多了。

心情被搞得很低落。

是不是开朗了太久？

现在轮到低落的时候了？

没办法集中精神了。

搞得整个人快跨了。

这只不过是开始而已，接下来的日子该怎么过？

想太多了。想太多了。

这根本不是我。

拜托拜托，坚强吧。

不想再想了。

唉..

坚持着不要上网的我.. 破戒了。


最近心情低落。实在有够不爽。

很多事情，明明不是我的问题，甚至不是任何人的问题，但是自己却感到非常内疚..

不爽带点内疚。



错。是很多很多的内疚。


这是我的问题。

我的问题自己解决。


“往往坚强的外表都有脆弱的内心。”

对吗？

Shabu One & "Big Head Sticker" xD

Soo.. Had 3E' Family Reunion Lunch today. xD

Didn't take any photos of us eating though.. Go get from someone else lar. -.-

After lunch. lol. 

Hui Ying and Zhu Yan. xD

Taking pictures from both sides. In front. Behind. ><

Group photo~

They were trying to do to "thing" which I dunno. ==

Lisa's shoe strap broke. So had to buy a new one.

Stock clearance "Buy 1 Free 1". -.-

I wanna boots~~~~ ><

Anne doing the shoe thing. Hahaha.

Lisa's brown, Annes's black. I'm not wearing heels.

OMG. Orange shoe appeared from no where!!

Ha-ha.

She looks so much taller with the heels. xD

Car Yin+Me

Anne+Me

Crystal+Me

BB Milk+Me

Ice+Me

Lisa+Me

Gawd I look the same in every picture. = =

Hahahahahaha.

Anne being perverted. xDDD

Again. ><

The heels group. -.-

They're trying to so their heels. ><

But ended up getting addicted and turned it into a photoshoot.

Hahaha.

It's like models resting. With the green background.

xD

Left. Feet hurt. -.-

I could almost hear it screaming at me for torturing it.

OMG. It's screaming at me!! See the earth shake!!

AHH!! Ohnooooooooooooo!!!!

I'm dead.

I'm rambling, woohoo.

Hahahhaha.

I'm back yo. ><

I know I know. Didn't update in ages. WEE~~ But, WHO CARES?!! Hahahahahah.

So..

Had barbecue party at Kuan Yung's house with C6 and 3E.
Woohoo~ Was awesome.
Took an extreme amount of pictures. Too bad. Go facebook search yourself. :P

Then then then,

CNY Holiday~

Went to Penang for 3 days 2 nights. Visited a whole lotta temples. -.-
ALOOOT to eat. Like, awesome.
Food makes the world go round. And me too. T.T

Was sick on the 3rd day. Like, headache headache. Sigh.
Arrived at home, thought I was gonna die.
Didn't eat anything for the whole day.
At night can't sleep. Feel like vomiting but tak boleh vomit.
Started to think I was possessed by some god or something.
Started to hallucinate. Kept saying prayers and mantras and whatever shit to "get rid" of the "god".

Next day morning, "god" left me. Woohoo.
World peace.


Anyway, went to watch 大兵小将Little Big Soldier on Thursday.

Jackie Chan is AWESOME.
Wang Lee Hom is AWESOME. -.-
AWESOME. AWESOME. AWESOME.

Nothing else to say.

Bye bye.

它。

多久没有哭了？


以前爱哭的我，应该有3个月没有真正的哭了吧？
就是因为太容易哭，才要变得坚强，让自己与“哭”产生界限。

习惯了“哭”，就害怕自己会永远沉没在眼泪里。
哭上瘾了，就没有办法再控制自己的情绪。
跟它太熟悉，就会害自己没有办法回到原本的路途。

15年来，我确实跟它太熟悉了。

不喜欢给人看见那样的我，所以我决定离开它。

或许是因为那一次哭光了我的泪水，
后来都没有哭了。


这次，好不容易的3个月，我破界了。
这次，又再回忆里相见了。

那19首歌不停地重复播放，每一首歌就浮现了不同的画面。

2008年的那一次。
2009年的那一次。

但是，我相信2010年，没有那一次了。

怀念过去，想要拥抱过去，后悔当初。
我的两大家庭，同样的母亲，不同的兄弟姐妹。
不懂大家现在怎么样了，但是我知道一定过得很好。

今年的某一天，我们会重逢。
直到那一天，我会等，我会忍，我不会再与它相见的。

Help, please.

Sigh.

I'm feeling so depressed right now.

Haiti is the poorest country in the Western Hemisphere, and yet, it has been struck by endless disasters for decades. And now, up to 200,000 people were killed by the 7.0 magnitude earthquake. That's two hundred thousand people.

A jail was damaged and 3,000 inmates got out. People are homeless and hungry, and they even have to worry about the criminals! What the hell is wrong with this world?!

I almost cried when I saw the documentary just now. We are complaining about what we don't have and even about what we already have, while they don't even have HALF the things that we own! They eat mud cakes, while we complain about whatever bloody cake there is!

I've donated fifty ringgit to them. Have you? Even if it's just five ringgit or even just one ringgit., it's the thought that matters. Even if you're not a religious person, pray to them in your own way, or make the people around you aware of this matter.

We can live a simple and happy life, why can't they?

Jeez..

I think too much.

Not good.

Not good at all.

Uh-huh.

Aiyor. 

I delete my "I'm so f***in pissed" post. xD

Because somebody said that I say too many bad words. Hahahah.

Actually I didn't start saying bad words again until i came back to school. Must be the C6 Virus going on. Hahahahaha.

So, my new resolution: 

Less No more bad words.

Yaaaaaaaay~

Got back my scissors yesterday.

Ding Yi took it. And it took him so many days to return it. -.-

Scissors~~~~~~ xD

God, I have a thing for scissors. ==

NyahaHHAaha.

Gosh.

Now i have someone else that I super duper love in Double S.




JUNG MIN~~~ 
*hearts*hearts*hearts*hearts*


OMG. He is so darn cuuuuute~~~~ As in the cute cute kind of cute. Not the cute looking guy kinda cute. Geddit? xD


Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh.

So obsessed~~~~~~~ xD

OMGOGMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

不要叫我怪胎。xD

现在好像都不想回家了.. 

放学后就在班上呆久久.. 等全部人走了才走..

觉得感觉上回到了初一，每天想着要上学，很好玩。xD

上课又很好一下的.. 

有隔壁一个傻佬一直在讲废话，不会说很显..

但是有时候他的废话又多到不得了.. -.- 

哈哈~

不懂做么.. 我的数学好像进步了。因式分解比较会做了.. 

哈哈哈~

整个假期都没有什么碰到数学.. 莫名其妙，自己进步了。

哈哈哈哈

很期待明天~ 

又要上课咯~~~ =3

Sigh.

Have to stop saying "算了啦".

I'm sounding more 随便 than I mean to be.

Sigh.

These days..

S1C6 is pretty awesome. >.<

Though they are different in a lot of points than J3E, but it's something new, right? =]


One the first day of school, we were all like, ".................". Absolutely no sound at all.

Then second day, "BOOM! BANG! WOOHOO~!!!!" Hahahah.

Awesome. And we're all so comfortable with each other already. Weee~~

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I lost my scissors today. -.- Freak. I always lose my scissors. ==

So pissed now.

If I ever find it back or actually get a new one, I'm never in my life gonna borrow it to anyone ever again. So never ever in your friggin life ask me for scissors. Or I'll slit your throat like the barber of Fleet Street.

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Very very tired now. Have been tired for these 3 days. No kidding.

I've never ever been this tired at the start of school. ;A;

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When somebody who's always fooling around and saying stupid things becomes serious and attentive to something, the level of attractiveness in that person becomes higher than any other person may be.

-Me

I've found that person.

New Haircut!

Yay! Finally cut my hair~ XD

The front is actually longer than the back..

Somehow I don't think school really allows that. Haha.

Screw the rules!!

Ow ow ow.

OMG. I've been aching all over since yesterday. -.-

Went back to school on the last day of last year. Haha. Apparently, we were there to "move" our "instrument room".. [Wth is it called in English?!]

Anyway, I arrived at 12pm, saw a lot of people cleaning the cupboards, instruments, yada yada yada..

I helped for an hour or so, and it was lunch time!! xDD

President [xD] actually gave us half an hour to eat lunch. HALF a friggin hour. -.-

So anyway, we were late when we finished our meal. But then, when we got back, they said that we had to wait till 2pm to move the stuff our to the carpark. -.-

So.. wait wait wait.

Then, move move move.

OMG. Can you imagine the amount of stuff to move?! It's like, our instruments aren't exactly small, ya know? And we had so many friggin manuscripts!! It was like moving a pile of rocks.. o.o

What's more, the stuuuuupid headmaster asked us to move our stuff from second floor, to third floor before this. THEN, he asked us to move the things to the carpark. ==

HELLO?! Where's your friggin brain, mister? You could've at least given us the first floor or something!

Jeez.. Inconsiderate.

We moved for 2 hours, I think. Back and fro back and fro. Up and down up and down. Soon after, I could go down the stairs and not up anymore. -.- Practically dragged myself up there.

Gahh.. Hate hate hate hate that Mr Cheng of us. ==

*Grumble* *Grumble* *Grumble*

HAPPY NEW YEAR,

PEOPLE!!!~