Afraid

I think there's something else inside of me. It never happens at school or anywhere outside. It only happens at home.

Something is stirring inside me. I think it's going to show itself.

It's my other half. The mirror half of me. It's perfect in ways but dark in other ways. It has what I've always wanted but what I've always despised.

I lose control of myself. My body doesn't feel like mine anymore. I can't control it. I fall and fall and fall and fall. I scold people without really realizing it. I say things that hurt uncontrollably.

What can I do? I feel like killing myself. Ending it all right this second.

Who can save me from this mess? This curse I am to bear forever. Who?