多久没有哭了？
以前爱哭的我，应该有3个月没有真正的哭了吧？
就是因为太容易哭，才要变得坚强，让自己与“哭”产生界限。
习惯了“哭”，就害怕自己会永远沉没在眼泪里。
哭上瘾了，就没有办法再控制自己的情绪。
跟它太熟悉，就会害自己没有办法回到原本的路途。
15年来，我确实跟它太熟悉了。
不喜欢给人看见那样的我，所以我决定离开它。
或许是因为那一次哭光了我的泪水，
后来都没有哭了。
这次，好不容易的3个月，我破界了。
这次，又再回忆里相见了。
那19首歌不停地重复播放，每一首歌就浮现了不同的画面。
2008年的那一次。
2009年的那一次。
但是，我相信2010年，没有那一次了。
怀念过去，想要拥抱过去，后悔当初。
我的两大家庭，同样的母亲，不同的兄弟姐妹。
不懂大家现在怎么样了，但是我知道一定过得很好。
今年的某一天，我们会重逢。
直到那一天，我会等，我会忍，我不会再与它相见的。
Sigh.
I'm feeling so depressed right now.
Haiti is the poorest country in the Western Hemisphere, and yet, it has been struck by endless disasters for decades. And now, up to 200,000 people were killed by the 7.0 magnitude earthquake. That's two hundred thousand people.
A jail was damaged and 3,000 inmates got out. People are homeless and hungry, and they even have to worry about the criminals! What the hell is wrong with this world?!
I almost cried when I saw the documentary just now. We are complaining about what we don't have and even about what we already have, while they don't even have HALF the things that we own! They eat mud cakes, while we complain about whatever bloody cake there is!
I've donated fifty ringgit to them. Have you? Even if it's just five ringgit or even just one ringgit., it's the thought that matters. Even if you're not a religious person, pray to them in your own way, or make the people around you aware of this matter.
We can live a simple and happy life, why can't they?
Aiyor.
Got back my scissors yesterday.
Gosh.
Now i have someone else that I super duper love in Double S.
JUNG MIN~~~
*hearts*hearts*hearts*hearts*
OMG. He is so darn cuuuuute~~~~ As in the cute cute kind of cute. Not the cute looking guy kinda cute. Geddit? xD
Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh. Gosh.
So obsessed~~~~~~~ xD
现在好像都不想回家了..
S1C6 is pretty awesome. >.<
Though they are different in a lot of points than J3E, but it's something new, right? =]
One the first day of school, we were all like, ".................". Absolutely no sound at all.
Then second day, "BOOM! BANG! WOOHOO~!!!!" Hahahah.
Awesome. And we're all so comfortable with each other already. Weee~~
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I lost my scissors today. -.- Freak. I always lose my scissors. ==
So pissed now.
If I ever find it back or actually get a new one, I'm never in my life gonna borrow it to anyone ever again. So never ever in your friggin life ask me for scissors. Or I'll slit your throat like the barber of Fleet Street.
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Very very tired now. Have been tired for these 3 days. No kidding.
I've never ever been this tired at the start of school. ;A;
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OMG. I've been aching all over since yesterday. -.-
Went back to school on the last day of last year. Haha. Apparently, we were there to "move" our "instrument room".. [Wth is it called in English?!]
Anyway, I arrived at 12pm, saw a lot of people cleaning the cupboards, instruments, yada yada yada..
I helped for an hour or so, and it was lunch time!! xDD
President [xD] actually gave us half an hour to eat lunch. HALF a friggin hour. -.-
So anyway, we were late when we finished our meal. But then, when we got back, they said that we had to wait till 2pm to move the stuff our to the carpark. -.-
So.. wait wait wait.
Then, move move move.
OMG. Can you imagine the amount of stuff to move?! It's like, our instruments aren't exactly small, ya know? And we had so many friggin manuscripts!! It was like moving a pile of rocks.. o.o
What's more, the stuuuuupid headmaster asked us to move our stuff from second floor, to third floor before this. THEN, he asked us to move the things to the carpark. ==
HELLO?! Where's your friggin brain, mister? You could've at least given us the first floor or something!
Jeez.. Inconsiderate.
We moved for 2 hours, I think. Back and fro back and fro. Up and down up and down. Soon after, I could go down the stairs and not up anymore. -.- Practically dragged myself up there.
Gahh.. Hate hate hate hate that Mr Cheng of us. ==
*Grumble* *Grumble* *Grumble*
